LILY Allen has admitted she has “been spiralling” since her shock break-up with her husband David Harbour and is “going away” to a facility.
The singer, 39, says she has suffered crippling panic attacks sparked by her heartbreak so is heading off for several weeks to deal with her “pain”.
Lily Allen says she is taking a break from the spotlight amid her marriage split[/caption]
Lily has not confirmed exactly where she is going but has reassured fans she will not be checking into a drug rehab centre, adding: “I’ve not relapsed.”
Speaking about her emotions on her Miss Me podcast, the mum-of-two did say that her phone will be banned.
Lily admitted to her podcast co-star and best friend Miquita Oliver: “I’m finding it really hard to be interested in anything. I’m really not in a good place.
“I know I’ve been talking about it for months but I’ve been spiralling and spiralling and spiralling and it’s got out of control.
“I came to the Miss Me Christmas lunch and had a panic attack and had to go home. I went to see something at the theatre the other night with my friends Carla and Claire and I had to leave at half time.
“I can’t concentrate on anything except the pain that I’m going through.”
The star, who married Stranger Things actor David in 2020, continued: “It’s really hard. I’m going away next week. You’re not going to hear me for a few weeks, listeners.
“I do want to reassure people because there will be speculation because of the amount of time that I’m going to be taking away, that I’m going to drug rehab – I’m not. I’ve not relapsed.”
Lily told Miquita that she’s looking forward to getting rid of her phone.
“They’re not doing us any good,” Lily said. “They’re certainly not doing me any good at the moment. I really don’t like my phone.”
Miquita told Lily that she “shouldn’t be on it,” to which Lily said she believed ‘no one’ should have a phone and that devices should “go in the bin”.
“I think social media has f***ed us. I think that it’s f***ed democracy, it’s f***ed everything, it’s f***ed the arts, it’s f***ed everything and we need to put them in the bin,” Lily said.
“We’re not talking to each other anymore. We’re not talking to each other on the streets, we’re not smiling at each other, we’re not doing what human beings are supposed to be doing and I’m as guilty of that as anyone else.
“This is the one thing I’m very excited about where I’m going the next few weeks is that I’m not allowed my phone.”
News of Lily’s shock split with Hollywood star David emerged just before Christmas.
The pair had married in a whirlwind ceremony in Las Vegas four years ago, but reports claimed they had been living virtually separate lives for months.
Not App-y
It was also reported that Lily – who has quit her foot fetish account on OnlyFans – had been spotted on the celebrity dating app Raya.
However, this week, sources claimed Lily only reactivated her Raya account to keep tabs on David after discovering him on there.
A source told the Mail: “Lily only rejoined Raya to try to figure out whether he was seeing someone.
“Lily has never even looked at anyone since she met David. She is devastated. He broke up with Lily a month ago. He was meant to be on holiday with her in Kenya over Christmas.”
David’s alleged profile on the app shows the cartoon silhouette of what appears to be him smoking.
He states he’s an actor living in Atlanta but originally from New York and has the tag line: “Closet nerd that plays tough guys on your TV.”
His profile song is Led Zeppelin’s Houses of the Holy.
Raya is strictly managed, with only around 8 per cent of applicants successful and 100,000 people on its waiting list.
Lily has two children, Ethel, 13, and Marnie, 11, who she shares with ex Sam Cooper.
She told Miquita how her girls are bringing her “joy” during the difficult moments – but that being a single mum again is “really hard”.
“I can say, it’s really tough – they are always there and you have to be present and there for them,” Lily added.
“And that’s okay, when things in life are going well and you’re coping it’s really nice to have the kids around they’re a joy.
“One of the main sources of joy in one’s life. But when things are not going so well and life is tough, as it is for many people for all manner of reasons, having to hold things together is really hard.”
Lily told her best friend Miquita Oliver she is ‘spiralling’ amid her heartbreak[/caption]
The mum-of-two says she’s finding it ‘really hard’ to ‘hold it together’[/caption]
